Ehsaas-Scene XII

Anjali saw Nihaal waking up she just was so happy like just a disbelief that he was alright. She rushed to him and sat beside his bed, she was delighted to see him fine but long trains of tears did not stop she was just sobbing and feeling more and more guilty. She just felt that how can she be the reason for so much pain to him she just wanted to hold him forever. Nihaal who could sense her pain and just gave her a consoling shoulder. Her break-up made her realize the intensity of her love it cleared her doubts that rather diminishing the love, the distance increased it many folds. On other side it was pleasant sight for the drowsy eyes of him to see her though she was looking tired and exhausted due to sleeplessness and her eyes were red due to hours of crying but at that moment she was looking the most beautiful woman to him and then he was just to speak something when Anjali kept her finger on his lips to silence him saying him that there is no need and he is weak they will talk later. But he pulled her nearer to her and holding her both the hands he started:

“Any, don’t stop me today. 5 years of silence is more than enough. I remember this day, I proposed you in front of mall and in the joys of marriage I saw the sorrow in your eyes of not getting to complete the studies and your dreams. Then we got married and I wanted you to get all the happiness of life. So when you asked me the permission to study more, I agreed blindly not because that I didn’t loved you but you know what I have always loved like hell but then too I agreed to your wishes. For all these years I spent daily time alone in the mansion. I used to visit our room. See our photos. But in all these years I also found out a bad truth of the top corporate world that most successful businessmen had a worse married lives as their wives always left them and I also found that people opened who mingled with their wives left them much more early. See the example of ours dad. Didn’t he marry twice but none of the marriage survived. Shashi aunt died and Kajol aunt had a divorce and didn’t my mom died leaving dad alone. Same fear crept in my mind because you were the only one relation of my life. And to test you and justify my fears that night when I said I didn’t love you was a drama. But then also you stood beside me and I saw tears in your eyes. I realized that all these long years I was the hurting the person whom I need the most. What do you think I never visited you? I use to visit Rome every quarter and always saw you from a distance and the reason was that I never wanted to disturb you. That night when I made this mistake and realized it I was coming home that night to ratify it, I found you left me. And I saw that worst fear coming true as you left and I did maintain a line between my personal and professional life for that reason only. That moment I decided either I will bring back you to my life or I will suicide as I am not a human. I tortured the person who loves me the most who left her home to be with me who left her family to wait hours for me. Then I saw you in India, I saw your happiness and when you were once telling your friends that you are the luckiest person to have such a sweet and best husband. I realized that you loved me madly and your returning to America, to me and see this time also I left you tearful. I am not worth you. I was never but you always made me feel special. ”

There was complete silence in the room; Anjali was not able to say anything. She was too full to say anything. She just left quietly. Next he was discharged though there was nothing serious but he was advised to rest a week or so. So he returned to mansion.